ok dat's after Friday ends...but it helps me to get thru the day.
Baby i'm home and the 1st thing i wanted to do was come online to see the blog. Just want to be in touch with anything related to you. I duno why but I'm broken now. It's so silly and so drama mama. But I really can't help it. I hope you understand. After u turned your back and walked into the departure hall, i was so relieved becos i din havta choke down my tears anymore. Finally, I understand what it feels like to miss someone so badly you really don't have a hold over your emotions. I know you were trying hard not to cry dat's y you walked in so swiftly. I'm surprised you cried actually and I really hope I din spoil the day for you. Sorry if i made things difficult for you. It's really not my intention. Just the tot of the next 37 days without you kills me. I noe i'm not gonna die or smth, but i've become so attached to you that it's hard to go about everyday life without you.
I know you told me not to write too much and too mushy stuff. But what the hell. This is my only outlet now. Tho i suspect the public can access this blog? cos i just typed the url and was able to read your entry alrdy.
Amelia just sent me a msg telling me not to be too upset and she said hi to you. So swt of her to remember dat ur leaving today.
*breathes in deeply*...I'll try hard at being ok and taking care of myself. I know you'll still worry abt me even if I tell u not to but dun let it hold u back on having fun! Really want u to enjoy every moment dat ur there and come back with lots of stories to share with me.
Amidst all these sadness, I'm glad I'm able to feel this much for a person. Hear from you soon!
Baby i'm home and the 1st thing i wanted to do was come online to see the blog. Just want to be in touch with anything related to you. I duno why but I'm broken now. It's so silly and so drama mama. But I really can't help it. I hope you understand. After u turned your back and walked into the departure hall, i was so relieved becos i din havta choke down my tears anymore. Finally, I understand what it feels like to miss someone so badly you really don't have a hold over your emotions. I know you were trying hard not to cry dat's y you walked in so swiftly. I'm surprised you cried actually and I really hope I din spoil the day for you. Sorry if i made things difficult for you. It's really not my intention. Just the tot of the next 37 days without you kills me. I noe i'm not gonna die or smth, but i've become so attached to you that it's hard to go about everyday life without you.
I know you told me not to write too much and too mushy stuff. But what the hell. This is my only outlet now. Tho i suspect the public can access this blog? cos i just typed the url and was able to read your entry alrdy.
Amelia just sent me a msg telling me not to be too upset and she said hi to you. So swt of her to remember dat ur leaving today.
*breathes in deeply*...I'll try hard at being ok and taking care of myself. I know you'll still worry abt me even if I tell u not to but dun let it hold u back on having fun! Really want u to enjoy every moment dat ur there and come back with lots of stories to share with me.
Amidst all these sadness, I'm glad I'm able to feel this much for a person. Hear from you soon!
Happy!!
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